Facebook Sober

Last month, I have personally deactivated my Facebook account a number of times. I believe I have more productive and positive days when I am not on social media. I recently cut myself off from social media. I did have to allow myself Twitter & Instagram which I need for work.

I realized how much junk and negativity is poured out from social media.

So I thought taking my life as offline as possible would make me more productive, less lazy, and less self-conscious about things. In the beginning, the Facebook shutdown wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be probably because I have so much FOMO to begin with.

Every time we post something, there is some part of us that wants people to approve it, like it, or comment on how it’s great. We wouldn’t all be using social media all the time otherwise. We’re obsessed with being connected.

I learned that it’s okay to not have to tell the world your every move or keep up with everything is doing. I finally took some time to do the things I enjoy and was completely fine with not checking my Facebook.

Once I removed myself from Facebook, I realized how much I revolved my real life around my social media.

If you feeling fed up & negativity on social media is stressing you up. Try to take a break. Disabled & deactivate it for the meantime. I’m telling you it works! Activate it when you’re good & ready.

Let’s all live a stress-free life!


My Journey Out of the Darkness & Depression.

ᴸᴵᴸᵞ ᴼᶠ ᵀᴴᴱ ᵛᴬᴸᴸᴱᵞ—signifies sweetness and the “return of happiness”. When the lily of the valley blooms, happiness is said to return.

I choose peace, love, humility, truth, laughter and gratitude.

If I’ve learned anything from life this year 2017,

It’s that sometimes the darkest times can bring us to the brightest place. What seems like a curse can actually a blessing. What seem like the end of the road is just actually the discovery. No matter how difficult things seem, there is always hope. No matter how powerless we feel or how horrible thing seem, we can’t give up. We have to keep going. Even when it’s scary, even when all of our strenght seem gone, we have to keep picking ourselves back up and keep moving forward. Whatever we’re battling in the moment it will pass, and we will make it through. We’ve made this far. We can make it through whatever comes next.

You don’t need anyone’s approval to be good enough. Your worth isn’t contigent upon people’s acceptance of you— it’s something inherent. You exist, and therefore you matter. You’re allowed to remove anyone from your life that who make you feel otherwise. You don’t have to internalize other people’s judgement. You need to make your happiness a priority!

My 32ish. 💚 

ᴸᴼᴼᴷᴵᴺᴳ ᵞᴼᵁᴺᴳ ᴬᵀ 32 ᴸᴼᵛᴱᴰ & ᴮᴸᴱˢˢᴱᴰ.

You’ve sweetened my life with fabulous surprise birthday party. It’s one I will always remember!

I leved-up!🎈🎉 HAPPY BRAT DAY !!!

Thank you God for another year of life. It’s not been easy but I’m surviving and so grateful to move forward. You will find situations in your life where you will have to do and face things that you probably don’t deserve.

A surprise cake from someone. 💚

Cheers to myself for surviving another year. I wish myself a better now than ever. I wish myself more of good things in life. Here’s to many more wonderful, crazy years ahead of me! “Wherever it is, I’ll fly. Whatever it takes, I’ll try, so don’t pay no mind to what other people say”.

Surprise fave white roses. 💚 Purity, Innocence, Sympathy, Spirituality. White roses as a symbol for “true love” .

I’m still that same girl, with stars in her eyes and wonder in her heart.💚

Can’t wait to see what’s to come for me this year. Stay tuned. The rest is still unwritten!

Surprise bouquet of sunflowers || Sunflowers are known for being “happy” flowers, making them the perfect gift to bring joy to someone’s day. Sunflowers symbolize adoration, loyalty and longevity.

With much sincerity and happiness I thank everyone who greeted me during my birthday. I was not expecting to do anything special, but all the birthday greetings and wishes forced me to see my day as a very special and memorable one.
It is very overwhelming and touching to know people remembered and took even a little time and effort to greet me.

I wish you all in return a happy life ahead !!! 💋

One Thing About Them Tables They Always Turn … 

People who use other people as steeping stones will one day lose their balance.

Karma has no menu. You get served what you deserve. Treat others as you wish to be treated. 

What goes around comes around. Karma never loses an address. Karma has no deadline. Sometimes you don’t realize how much you’ve hurt someone until the tables have been turned.

The law of Karma is also called the law of Cause and Effect, action and reaction. As you sow so shall you reap. Time is more powerful than you. Don’t waste your time on revenge; those that hurt you will eventually face their own karma. Life is an echo what you put out comes back to you. Whoever is trying to bring you down, is already below you. One fine day the ball will end up in your court.

Law of karma:  Never try to play with other people around you. For you may never know that they play better than you. People hate when you show them how it feels to be treated the way they treat you.   

Never forget three types of people in your life.

  1. who helped you in your difficult times
  2. who left you in your difficult
  3. times and who put you in difficult times.

Never close the door on an opportunity until you’ve had a chance to hear the offer.  Today is an opportunity to get better. Don’t waste it.  Keep your mind open to opportunities. They are closer than you think. Nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could have changed your life. In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take.

If the opportunity doesn’t knock, build a door. Your life is a result of the choices you make. If you don’t like your life, it is the time to start making better choices. Excuses will always be there for you. Opportunity won’t. Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time, more intelligently. Nothing is more expensive than a missed opportunity. In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.

People who create their own drama, deserve their own karma. 
So tables turn, bridges burn, you live and learn. ☝🏼

Living with Depression

Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling left out? Are you desperate to find something more before your life is over? Are you stuck inside the world you hate?  Are you suck of everyone around, with their big fake smiles stupid lies?

While deep inside you’re bleeding. No, you don’t know what it’s like when nothing feels alright. You don’t know what it’s like to be me…

I lied and said I was busy. I was busy; but not in a way most people understand.

I was busy taking deeper breaths. I was busy silencing irrational thoughts. I was busy calming a racing heart. I was busy telling myself I am okay.

Sometimes, this my busy, and I will not apologize for it.

ᴮ. ᴼᴬᴷᴹᴬᴺ | ᴬᴺˣᴵᴱᵀᵞ ᴰᴼᴱˢᴺ’ᵀ ᴷᴺᴼᶜᴷ ᶠᴵᴿˢᵀ

In Between…

Right now,

She’s stuck somewhere between “I care” and “I don’t want to care anymore”.

She’s stuck somewhere between  “I want to stay” and “I have every reason to leave”.

 She’s stuck somewhere between “We’ve been through too much for me to give up” and “I’ve been through enough I can’t take it no anymore”.

She’s stuck somewhere between “I don’t mind putting up with his bullshit because every couple fights” and “I’m getting so sick of arguing and fighting with him”.

She’s stuck somewhere between “maybe things will be good again one day” and “things will never be the way they used to be again”.

She’s stuck somewhere between “I love him too much to let him go” and I’m just done”.

ʆa Douleur Exquise: Always Almost But Never Again..

How many will it take for me to learn?  How could this be possibly happening again? How is this still affecting me the way it does? I’m so confused it hurts.

Why you?

The thoughts of you are a parasite eating away my soul, even when I try to focus on the good you brought into my life, a shadow of doubt clouds my thoughts.

You said you didn’t want to lose me again. You did nothing. It was all words. You were all words. I needed more than words. I was so stupid. The relationship makes me low. Your love is taking me away, and I just can’t say no. Why did I believe that you were headed north when you were walking south?

I remember when we were inseparable; Each day began and ended with you. How can you act like I never really mattered?

It’s been a year – well almost close to a year. I waited for an answer – or something. Hopefully for an answer. I have a feeling I will never know the answer for you’ll never give me a chance. Silence is what I got, but that’s an answer, nevertheless.

I’m confused and broken. I’m only temporary. Always and forever secondary. I’m your escape and your most kept secret. I’m over the idea of US now.

You and I. Always almost. It was an almost moment that started it all. We were always on the verge of almost.

Never nothing, never something,  but never again.